It's Day-15 at my new work place today. I'm having my lunch... Alone. Not because no one asked but I feel way way way more comfortable eating alone. Or you can simply put it as I very beh cham.

Sitting here thinking to myself why the hell did I leave Hard Rock. Is the money worth it? Is the distance worth it? Is the environment worth it? Is the job worth it? YES, that's what I thought but NO. For now, I don't think so. As much as I hate to complain, this is probably 1 of the very few ways I find relief in expressing myself. I miss everything Hard Rock. Not exactly the brand but the smell, the atmosphere and most of all, the PEOPLE. They became a part of my life that I feel now is missing. I miss the fun, the laughter, the frustration with certain people. Now all those seem unreachable. The things I have on my plate are so, so tough for my simple brain. Many would say, "Aiya, it's only your 2nd week here, give yourself a break. Don't be so harsh." Well as the saying goes, it's easier said than done. Exactly! I couldn't agree more. It feels awful not being able to do work if I don't spend 3 hours staring at the screen OK?

I try to find little things to be thankful about everyday since I started here. Some days can be easy most of the days hard. Today is one of the harder days to find something to be thankful about other than being alive. Is it because I expect too much from myself? Or is it simply because I know deep down that this job is just plain difficult? Having a number of tasks given to me that I probably have ZERO understanding and not having the freedom to ask with my mouth (everything goes through Skype - even speaking to the person 5cm away from me), I FEEL TRAPPED. I only can go into the toilet, pray like crazy for God to help me...

For now, I just gotta finish up my lunch and get back to work.

Lord help.

Thank you for reading!

Love,
Sheryn

Good things happen to those who are thankful.

Sitting here in the hospital, waiting for my turn to see the doc and just thinking at how Blessed I am these few weeks (yes, again). I'm always very grateful for what I have and for everything that has happened not because I 'choose' to do so but I guess I'm just naturally like that and I think u can train yourself to be like that too if u want? Read somewhere that when u voluntarily do something for 21 times, it will turn into a habit? Haha! Try being thankful tho. In everything. So I was down with muscle spasm on my back just last week. It got so bad until I was admitted into the hospital for 3 days, 2 nights and all I did was Eat, Sleep, Physio, Repeat. 

And I got A LOT of SLEEP! After thinking about what has happened, I began to realise that maybe this was God's way of letting me finally getting some rest and sleep my body needed. It was definitely a busy year for me up until November. And I was complaining that I was tired. Physically and mentally. I easily get annoyed. So I am thankful that my back suddenly experience this so I get some good rest.

Besides that, during this time I also got to see how much I am loved! HAHAHA! It wasn't a serious condition that I was diagnosed with or anything. It was merely some muscle tense and look at my colleagues who came to see me! There were many others who weren't in the photos who came and cheered me up. I'm so glad that my family was there for me too. So coincidentally my sis was back and parents weren't working . I was treated like a princess again . 

Today many little wonderful things took place. My appointment with the Doc was supposed to be at 10.15am, I just finished my breakfast at 10am. To get to the hospital, it'll take 5 mins or so if I knew the way there. So I quickly got into my car and drove. I prayed a little prayer and got myself there on time! Yay! Knowing the this hospital, it's almost impossible to get a car park lot. Then I prayed a little prayer again, The moment I pressed the ticket, I saw someone leaving. Woohoo! I got a lot without even needing to search. Praise Jesus! So later on just now, I had my 7th physiotherapy session and as I was lying down, it came to mind that I actually wished to get a nice therapist to do the sessions for me coz I wanted someone whom I can be comfy with. I thank God for Kathleen as my therapist. She's a very gentle and sweet lady. I love her. And the final thing that happened was... During the session I was actually freezing coz my shirt was half opened and usually (in my previous 6 sessions), the therapy would end with an ice pack being placed on my back. However as I was feeling super cold just now, I prayed a little prayer once more... "God, I don't want an ice pack." Then Kathleen came in and said "today I will use a warm pack instead." I WAS ALL SMILES!!

Good things do happen to those who are thankful. Be thankful today!

Thank you for reading!

Love,
Sheryn

OMG. HOW TO USE? WHAT ARE APPS?

2012, the year I first got myself a smartphone. And yes, I bought it with my own money ya. I had to 'work' for all the phones I owned . I remember the day I first touched a smart phone... It was alien. I am weird. I was very nervous not knowing how to operate and found it difficult to use in the beginning. I even thought of getting myself a spare phone (with keypads) just in case I give up learning. I soon learn about apps. What they are and how they work. It was sooo interesting. I was on my phone all the time trying out the photo editing apps etc. 2016 - mere 4 years from when I first got a smartphone. I'm so smartphone - savvy now u have no idea. So what I'm trying to say is, whether you're in a super awkward situation now or feel like you're in one, don't give up. Move on, you'll adapt to it anyway. Human beings are designed to adapt. You'll be fine. Trust me. ❤

Thank you for reading!

Love,
Sheryn