S E E K E E L E E : October 2015

I guess this is the time of the month where I'd pick on anything to fight about. Pick on anything to feel offended about. Pick on anything to feel emotional about. It really sucks. Now that I notice, I can still write about it. But when I don't things get so out of control... This could be by far one of the most negative post I'll be writing... I'll show you that life isn't always a bed of roses, but it still goes on.

I finished work and left at 7.10pm-ish. Was supposed to meet him for dinner and spend some time together before I leave for 4 days. He fell sick yesterday so we decided to have a quick dinner. After a really quick dinner he sent me home..

While in the car, I don't remember how but I brought up the topic on how he is so super fussy about doing things that bothers me and stresses me out. For instance, yesterday's dinner at his house, I took the fork&spoon and distributed them out. I knew he'd want me to pair them (according to their type/shape) so I really did put effort into pairing them. When I was done, he said "why is this not paired" the moment he said that, I almost broke into tears but I remained calm. And I let out a sigh.

Bringing this up just now might not be the best thing to do, given my yoyo emotions but it just came out. After a long argument, there was no conclusion. I seek for one. I asked if he could just let me do things my way instead of following his. The answer... only he knows. I didn't know how to stop the anger and frustration I just hugged him and said sorry. But I know the deep inside me still yearns for a conclusion... something like, "babe, as long as you're happy doing things, just do it your way..."  Sobs.

Now that I'm writing this I want to reflect on myself too. Is it too much to ask if I could do things my way? Is it too much to ask him to stop forcing me to do things his ways? Idk. God, speak to me. Speak to him too.. Guide us, I pray.

See, being in a relationship really isn't happy moments all the way. It is these moments that stretch you and test you and see if you really love that someone and if you would sacrifice certain things to make it work. If my relationship with him was merely "I like you, you like me, we should be together" kinda thing, I really don't think it'll last. I almost gave up several times. But he was persistent and he knew exactly why we got together in the first place, that is why we're still together.

I somehow find that each day I learn new things about each other. I learn that we have more differences than I thought we'd have. But in the differences, we love each other still. I'm so thankful suddenly. Now I need to learn to accept about what I complained just now. And I pray that he will choose to accept me too.

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While writing this, I just received a text. A text of apology from him.. Wow! GOD, you're amazing. Look, when we learn to stop and reflect on ourselves and surrender to God, He's gonna take care of it. I'm not like "Yayyy so much win" but I am completely humbled by what just happened. He took the effort to apologise and I should too.

Thank you for reading! I gotta go say my sorry now!

Love,
Sheryn

The sweeter side of us :)

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I really believe in acting fast- making quick decisions I mean. Mommy has been dreaming of going on a trip together as a family and I only managed to make it happen for a road trip to Ipoh 3 months ago, which both my parents enjoyed so much. We literally ate from the beginning to the end of the trip... Look at their happy faces! Priceless.

So about this upcoming trip that we're planning to go... It's a land a little further than Ipoh. We're going to KL! I know it's nothing much to shout about (location wise) but I bet it's gonna be exciting coz they seldom travel. I'm just gonna share about where I book my stay and where we're going, what we're eating etc.

Pre-trip:

We originally planned to stay with my uncle but too bad, he won't be in town that week. So I've decided to give Airbnb a try. I've read about it from a blog and thought that I should explore further. I logged in with my Facebook account (so convenient!) and got started. You just need to indicate what type of accommodation you're looking for and how many people travelling, airbnb will filter the best places for you. For my case, I was looking for a shared room at first coz I didn't wanna spend so much on accommodation. I stayed at a budget hotel (DeUptown Damansara) booked from Booking.com last year and thought I should try something different this time. I eventually decided on booking a whole apartment for 5pax. Airbnb's website looks amazing. It attracted me the moment I'm in. Have a look yourself:

Nice rite?

So yeah, booking a place was kinda hassle free... Until the payment part. I only use a debit card and do not have a credit card. I wasn't exactly clear that Airbnb do not accept payment from a debit card. I tried a million times trying to pay but was rejected again and again. I contacted my host (the owner of the apartment I chose) and he was so nice to answer to my (silly) questions and tried to help me. I gave up trying in the end. Another thing I didn't like is that no matter how many times I change my preferred currency, it remained at EURO. I got quite irritated with the whole booking thing at the end of the day. I gave myself a few hours to chill and then tried again using my mum's debit card(s). It failed again so I resorted to using my dad's credit card (without his permission haha coz he was asleep) and finally... I saw 'Payment Successful' but it was still in EURO. I really don't know why.

This though... >:/

But yay! Accommodation: checked.

To be continued...

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It's 12.10am now and I am supposed to sleep coz obviously there's work tomorrow... But guess what? I choose writing over sleep because I am over excited thinking about my interesting past.

I'm bringing you on a trip down memory lane, back in 2005. Just about 20 minutes ago, my friend tagged me in a photo. Not just any photo but with my discipline teacher in it. Exactly 10 years ago, Puan Jennifer was our 'Kemahiran Hidup' teacher and also the head of discipline in Methodist Girls' School Penang. She had the aura of (let me think of the fiercest thing alive) a lion? Idk, but man was she scary. We all fear her. Because of her, I told my sister not to become a teacher coz I thought teachers will turn into mad women eventually. So what brought me here was something we (I think I) did that led to a severe punishment then which we all remember till now.

She was so strict and came up with crazy rules like you can't wear earrings to school if it is besides silver or gold in colour. And you know lah, us being teenagers at 15, being and looking cool is the utmost important thing in our life. So, LY (LeeYip) wore a black round earring to school that day (see I really can remember). She was spotted by hawk eye teacher and then asked to remove the earrings. She was definitely very upset about it but held it in. I think if she was like one of the kids these days, she would've screwed Pn Jenn up. But no, she just went back to her seat and sat there quietly.

Now, me being the mischievous one, wrote LY a letter... The letter says something like "... eh, let's go to CPT (Convent Pulau Tikus) since here so strict..." That was a very obvious joke that I made coz I think we didn't like CPT very much. So it WAS A JOKE! After I've written that 'letter', I passed to another girl to pass to LY. So she took the paper and while handing over to LY, Mrs Hawk Eye saw and shouted, "what is that?!" oh mannnn nobody knows what went through my mind. My heart almost came out from my mouth! The 'messenger' then said it's a letter to be passed to LY. Mrs Hawk Eye then asked LY to take it and open it up and read it to the entire class. And so.... my 'joke' was read aloud to everyone. I could see how hesitant LY was when she was asked to read. She was actually giggling while reading.

So long story short, teacher got mad (and maybe pms or what I'm not sure) went to the school office for some time, came back and made us stand at the basketball court, under the hot sun. We were placed 1 at one end the other at the other end, just so that we won't chit chat. OMGsh, imagine how LY would have felt. Like hello? She was innocent, did nothing wrong but got punished as well.

That incident there happened 10 years ago and we all remember it up until now. Mrs Hawk Eye will always be remembered as a scary teacher. I think when I bump into her now it will still send chills down my spine. Idk. I mean she's really scary. She threw books and stuff. Who wouldn't be afraid?

Thoughts about highschool always leave a very nice feeling in my heart... Those are truly the best years of my life! I've never laughed that much anymore and I doubt I will in the future. I miss my buddies. There's 8 of us altogether, but we're totally harmless.. We were really chatty and noisy but we never did anything to hurt anyone. Guess teachers then didn't know how to appreciate innocent hearts like that. Kids nowadays are different, according to a teacher-friend. Not as harmless as we used to be. And I also found out that Mrs Hawk Eye is still working at the same school, however she has calmed down a lot more. I want to clarify that I do not have anything against her now, I've let go.

I LOVE HIGH SCHOOL AND I CANNOT LIE!!!

Here's the photo that led me here:

See it was so long ago that Hui Ling already became a mama... (Oops, look at those comments coming in)

Our fear & trembling student-teacher relationship did not end badly. Coz when I turned 16, I cleaned up my act. Eh no wait. My act memang clean... Erm, I shall put it this way, I toned down. Not as noisy/mischievous anymore. And I remember something nice she said about me when I was 17... She said "I didn't know you can sing so well, good job!" after my performance during the English Week. So yeah, that compliment was actually my last conversation with her.

Thanks for the memories, Puan Jennifer and thank YOU for reading. :)

Love,
Sheryn

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I remember waking up very early in the morning (probably 5/6 am), walking to the TV console, pulling out my favourite movies in VCR tape form and then picked what to watch for that day. Well, at that time I only had about 7 movie choices but I NEVER got bored of watching them!

Please do not ever forget how vcr tapes look like and how they function! It's such a beautiful memory.. These are my favourite movies and I'd still watch them over and over again. I can't imagine growing up without these movies! 

In case you're wondering, this is a VCR Tape, just like a cassette but bigger in size.

I love The Little Mermaid! Love the songs the story line, practically the whole movie.
I even have the "sing along songs" version and would Karaoke with it!

To me, this is kids' type of horror movie. It has a dark side to the movie which I get the thrill whenever I watched it.
Guess this helped me developed a liking for horror movies?

I know every song in Pocahontas! Love the movie and love the sequel too!

I thank my grandfather for introducing musicals to us when we were little!
Although the movie gets a little boring at some parts, I love how retro it is now!

Also, one of my favourites, George Of The Jungle! I love the animation and the colours and of course, the tree house!

Ah Ha! Another 'dark' movie when I was young that I enjoy! Hocus Pocus is amayyyyzing!

Say hello to another musical. Sister Act came when I was a little older and I still enjoy it as much as last time.

Seeing these posters makes me think of how carefree and literally free I was then. I'd love to lie on my couch and watch these again... God, when will I have the time?

Not sure if you were from the same generation but if you haven't watched any of these movies, YOU HAVE TO!!

OK, please allow me to side track a little. Saw this video earlier and thought it's like Sister Act in reality! Enjoy...

Thank you for reading!

Love,

Sheryn

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Came back from work last night feeling so privileged and blessed. I have reasons to be upset at how certain things are going in my life right now but I have MORE reasons to be thankful.

Working for a renowned brand for almost 2.5 years has made me realise how blessed and favoured I am. Growing up reading fashion and lifestyle magazines had made me desire to work for a magazine. I remember clearly that there is this section in Cleo Magazine where they show snap shots of "behind the scenes" in the office and that made me dream of working there. The products that they get to try on, the little product samples they receive, putting together a fashion piece, dressing up someone, reviewing products and so on, definitely attracted my interests.

I started off as an admin. A sales admin. So I was taking event leads, answering phone calls, doing filing and so on. I often looked at the Marcom dept and thought how nice if I were to do what they were doing... Taking photos, managing social media, editing photos, do copy writing for prints etc. So much wantsssss!!

Little did I know, people were planning to leave. And the door opened for me. I have been in Marcom for about 1.5 years now! And I have to say I'm lovin' it! Everything I do now I do with passion. I've had many opportunities to experience things not everyone get to experience. For example, I get to be a part of organizing huge events, go to places like the Star Cruise and so many more I can't remember.

So come to think of it, I really have 10,000 reasons to be happy! And thankful! What led me to write this post was the visit I made to Star Cruise Gemini.. And especially with my lovely lovely colleagues which you'll see in the photos below:

This is the Seaview cabin

Oops, don't remember which category this is...

Here's the Lounge, surprisingly not a smoking area

This is where the night shows take place. (Adults only)

There are 2 pools in the cruise! Not very big but good enough I guess.

Say hello to my boss (beside me) and my fellow wonderful colleagues who make working so fun!

My dinner! Was starving during the cruise inspection and then finally greeted by these amazingly delicious food!

It was such an eye opening experience for me at the cruise. I loved everything except the dizziness I felt while walking the whole time. The ship was not even moving! Bleh, but everything became better after food. :D

Thank you for reading!

Love,

Sheryn

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... is Him.

I wouldn't say I have no idea how I survived the past few months with the crazy schedule at work and in church but I know that the strength came from my God. We've been working on the album since February this year and finally launched it on 29th Aug during my church's 50th Anniversary. I'd say the support we've got was simply amazing!

The entire journey of recording this album has strengthened my faith in the reality of Christ... It has pushed me beyond what I 'think' I can do and cannot do, especially in song writing and singing. Recording this album has showed me that God uses the weak too. 5 of us had no experiences nor a have we attended any lessons but the album turned out nice and I give all glory to God!

The journey of recording the album was so wonderful because God revealed Himself so many times.
The album cover design was submitted to me by Mr Liang, Joanne who never saw it also showed me and the designs both bring the same meaning. How awesome is that? There were many more incidences where we knew very clearly that it was God who spoke.

There were also times when we forget to pray before we start recording and the music recorded that particular night went to waste coz it just didn't sound good no matter how many times we've tried to record. This reminds me that committing everything to God before we do anything is the utmost important thing. We learned our lesson and from that day on, we never missed praying.

Just last week when we were practicing in SAND band, God spoke and both Sean and I were very encouraged. It was said that the song we wrote (Freedom) will be sung by many youths and will be used in many churches. It will be 'the' song for this season. I am in awe. Never have I ever thought that a song written by a group of inexperienced people could touch so many hearts. This shows clearly that it is not how good of a composer you are, but whether how anointed the song is. I am so humbled and grateful that God chose us.

So this is how the album looks like, it has 7 songs, all written and produced by 5 of us with God's grace.

The album is for sale at RM30. For enquiries, email worship.rgbc@gmail.com.

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